It's another day of Vlogmas and I'm going a bit out of order but today's prompt is:我不敢告诉你这三件事。
And just like I do with anything I'm scared 徳赢ios苹果about,I'll jump straight in…
(I literally do this.I was once scuba diving at night in Australia and I had to do a night dive to get my advanced scuba diving qualification.it was pitch black and the boat was surrounded by sharks and everyone else was hovering around the back of the boat I just wriggled through the crowd of nervous divers and jumped straight in.I was terrified but I knew I just had to get in and get it over and done with to get that qualification.It was awful – I do not recommend scuba diving in the dark!)
Anyway,here we go….
Do you know why it scares me?Because if this all goes tits up and I need to go out and get a ‘proper job' again I would probably fall to pieces.我甚至无法想象回到一周工作40小时，年假有限，薪水不达标的工作状态。
The thought of it absolutely terrifies me.
This job and this incredible career seemed to emerge out of nowhere and it terrifies me that it might disappear as quickly as it materialised.
I've had this dream for a long time that I'd love to spend a whole year just travelling around the UK.I'd love to spend 12 months seeking out the best hotels and the quirkiest glamping sites.我很想爬山，探索城市，展示我们美丽的海岸线，我也很想用我自己的车舒适地完成这一切，这样我就可以毫无压力地带着整个家庭。
I earn a living through travelling the world,not through staying at home.
It's still something I'd love to do one day,it's just today is not the day.
I have an identity crisis approximately twice a month
Before I begin with this one I need to say a big thank you to Elle Croft because she is the person I turn to once or twice a month when I'm having my identity crisis.
Am I doing the right thing?
Am I still enjoying this?Should I do something else?Should I do something more meaningful?Am I a good person?如果我这样做，我能赚更多的钱吗？我想赚更多的钱吗？对，I think I do want more money.不，I don't need money to be happy.金钱买不到幸福。Should I run away and live in the mountains?我想念London，should I move back to London?我非常爱我的孩子，你觉得我应该多生几个孩子吗？不，I couldn't handle more kids.哦，但我喜欢婴儿。Could I be a travel blogger with three kids?我应该成为一个家庭博客写手吗？Would more people be interested if I was a lifestyle blogger?我想更加环保。But I really enjoy shopping.我还喜欢旅行吗？Can you really combine a hobby and a business?
And Elle will patiently listen to me ramble on,giving insightful words of wisdom until I feel like myself again!
然后我会觉得我已经在一起了，我会全神贯注，充满灵感和动力，继续我的生活，然后几个星期后，我会看到有人做了一些很酷的事情，我会想我自己，‘That looks fun,I want to do that,can I do that?' and the whole thing starts all over again!